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Sunday, July 3, 2005
Great News!
Mood:
 happy
Woo Hoo! AS of Saturday, June 25, 2005, I finally got my own apartment again! I dont think that I could b much more excited about the whole thing. I mean, really, what better news is there, other than the obviouse like I won the lotterty or something to that degree. I am still so excited. Its been just over a week, and I have the whole place to myself, ANd i also have some very interesting neighbors. but in this case, it's a good thing. More updates as things progress. later
Posted by sweetestrose81
at 1:43 PM PDT
Sunday, June 5, 2005
Morty's B-Day
Mood:
 chillin'
Last night was Morty's 21st B-day. So a few of us decided to go out bar hoppin. We went to Red Robin, and had a few drinks, but they were really crappy. I had to finish one of Morty's drinks, and one of tess's, so we could leave. BUt the stupid bartender didn't even put any booze in tes's second drink. She had to pay like $6 for a friggin virgin daquri. What kind of b s is that? then people decided that they wanted to do kariokie, so we had to think of a bar that had that, but no cover charge. So we ended up at Speakeasy. It took the damn waitress like 20 min just to come to our table to take our drink orders. Then it took forever for her to bring them to us, and then forever to give me my change, I was the only one at the table who needed change anyway, I mean, how hard was that? SO finally the manager came over to make sure that we were being helped. well, everyone finished their drinks, and then we left. We had to cross the street to get to the cars, and morty and sunny ran across first, but this car was coming down the street after they had already started, and insted of slowing down, it started speeding up! so tess and I yelled at them to hurry up. they made it across, but not by a lot. and there was another car, but they were further behind, and they waited for tess and I to cross the street, which wa really nice. well, we went to Hoops next, but morty started to feel sick, so we swung out of the parking lot, and went back to tess's house for a bathroom break. then we went to wallymart, for a munchy run, and sunny and morty dropped me at tess's, and they went back to morty's. Well, tess stayd up a little longer, and then she went to bed. Ryan was over there though, and he and Josh were playing video games and what not, and I decided to watch some tv. It was 1:30am by this time, and I ended up watching a movie untill 4am. and then i kicked ryan out, so I could get some sleep. SO i went to bed at like 4:15am, and then woke up at like 7:30am or so, got up at 8am, and then got ready for church, and went to church, now I'm at home writting this, then later I have to go back to tess's and help her study for her college finals this week. SO yea, I'd say that it was an ok night/day. I know i had some fun. anyways, more another time.
Posted by sweetestrose81
at 12:52 PM PDT
Monday, May 16, 2005
People are stupid...
Mood:
 irritated
Some people are so stupid. This is not just a statement of my personal opinion, but a tru fact. Of this there is not doubt in my mind. Meet some of my family, and people I know, and u will agree. Take my older bro for example. He is such a moron sometimes. And so freakin irritating! Sometimes I just want to bring him to his knees. And believe me, I know how, ask anyone who knows me.
Like right now, he's blabing about disgusting food combinations, because we both were just having lunch. I just want to smack him or something. Arugh!!!!!!!!!!
And besides that, I had logged onto my blog to write something else compleatly diffrent, and now, Im so irritated that I cant even think about what I was going to write. So, i will just hope that I remember later and can write it when he's not around. I know that anyone who has a sibling probably knows what I'm going through, but it shouldn't be this bad after all these years. I mean seriously, he's 25, and im 23, but do u think that he has grown up any since he was 7 and I was 5? Well, I'll tell u that the answer is NO! I'm to frustrated to write anything else right now. Hopefully I'll get some privacy later, and can write about what I really need to . Singing off.
Posted by sweetestrose81
at 2:30 PM PDT
Sunday, May 1, 2005
Friday, was a blast
Mood:
 party time!
Well, this last friday,(the 29th), my friends and I had girls night. We had a blast. We all went shopping to pick up a few things, then we went back to Tess's place. We made dinner, and mixed up some margaritas. I was the bartender all night. We started to get really goofy, around 10pm or so. Somebody was on the internet talking to people, while we were watching movies that we had rented, and then, that person said that whomever they were talking to wanted to come over and have casual sex, so we told him that our apartment number was the one across from us, so that we could watch him from the balcony and see what happened when someone answered the door at that apartment. Well, we called up Scott, and asked him to come over, and pretend that he was our pimp if the guy figured out where we really were. We just laughed about it later.
The guy got back online after he gave up and went home, and said that he went to the appartment that we sent him to, and some old woman answered the door, and then slammed it in his face, we all just started crackin up.
we all stayed up till like 4 or 5 in the morning, watching movies, and drinking and crackin up. But if we would have planed things out better, we would have been able to play the drinking games that I bought, and I think we would have had a bit more fun. But it was still great. We should do that like one weekend a month when no one has to work late. Well , gotta go for now. More interesting stories soon, im sure.
Posted by sweetestrose81
at 12:41 PM PDT
Thursday, April 28, 2005
Never let me go
Mood:
 spacey
There is something about him,
Something that pulls me towards him,
Pulls me in like a tide in the ocean,
I know that if I dont fight,
I could be pulled in, and drown in his eyes, and in the essence that is him,
What is it about him,
That I just can't push him away
That I want to hold on forever in the back of my mind,
Even if it means my death?
There has to be something there, I just can't figure out what it is,
Because I dont ever want to let it go,
I dont ever want to loose that feeling of being sucked in, of fighting for my life,
Because that is the secret of it all,
That feeling that you could loose everything in a moment, and still not care
Still wanting to be pulled in forever
I know that I should fight,
Because I don't want to let go forever,
Because I know that I will never win
I will never be able to stop that pull,
Never be able to come up for air,
If I ever let go, and just went with the tide,
I would be lost forever,
And yet I don't care
But I can't have it end that way,
I will just have to find a way to fight it each and every single day, no matter how hard it is,
Because to give in means death
I just want that feeling with someone whom I know will save me when they see what is happening,
When they see me start to sink below the surface of the water,
Some one that will save me, and hold on forever, never letting me go,
Never letting me die in that sea of themselves,
That will still let me feel that pull, but never let me go.....
Posted by sweetestrose81
at 5:36 PM PDT
Updated: Thursday, April 28, 2005 5:53 PM PDT
Untilted Poem
Mood:
 not sure
Thoughts flooding my mind
Confusing things that they are,
Somehow I know they make sense,
I just have to break their code
I know that the truth lies ni the back of my mind,
Hidden away from my concious self,
Not wanting me to see,
What's going on inside there
My mind is trying to protect itself
To protect my sanity
But will it work?
Is there something going on inside there,
That I'm too afraid to let myself see?
The answer lies burried inside
The key is burried inside, hidden from myself
There is just something there,
I don't know what it is
It pulls me inside, turns me inside out,
It torments me daily, if I allow my mind to wander
So I push it away, hoping for another day
And that maybe tomorrow, it will subside,
And let me rest in peace
My mind finally at rest
And I can be free
Posted by sweetestrose81
at 5:21 PM PDT
Monday, April 25, 2005
HMMMM............
Mood:
party time!
Well, here's the deal. Amanda and I want to have a "small get together" this weekend, both of us have been thinking about it, and came up with it about the same time. We want to get the "ususal suspects" together, and have a littel shindig. The thing is, someone already has plans for this weekend, Tess, that would b u. ANyways, what we need to do, is to get everyone together, and decide what night we can do it, and obviously it has to b a night where no one has to do anything the next morning. We also need to decide where to do it. Now, if everyone could just get along, and help make all these decisions, and make sure that there are an even number of guyz and gurlz, so that no one feels odd person out, everything will b great. I need to get away this weekend, because Jesse will b visiting this weekend, and i dont wanty to b anywhere near him. SO yea, if we could all just work outt the details before friday night, everything should go smoothly. Lets just hope that that is the case. if anyone has any ideas to figure out how to make this work, please let me know. Talk to u all laterz.
Posted by sweetestrose81
at 12:45 PM PDT
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
wiggy dreams
Mood:
 crushed out
OMG!, i just woke from the most fantasctic dream that i have had in a long time. It was about a person whom shall remain nameless for the time being, but in case those of u who know me, get the idea that it is someone in particular, let me tell uu now, ur wrong. It's about someone that I have only met once or twice, but obviously they left a good impression.
Here is what happend....
I was on the phone w teresa, and she asked me to come over, and help her out w something, she told me that Jordan was already asleep, and her hubby wasn't home, so that we could hang out and talk. ANyways, i got a phone call from someone that I really don't like, rightr before I was ready to leave. I hung up with that person, and then I got another phone call. i almost didn't answer it, I was afraid that it was that particular person again. But it wasn't. It was the person that this dream is about. Don't ask me how they got my number, cause that is still a mystery to me. THe point is that they got my number, and asked me if I was coming over to Teresa's house,so obviously they know eachother better than I know him. Hmm.... anywayz, I said that I was, and they said ok, I might swing by and hang out with all of you. I said ok, and hung up the phone. Thinking what a weird occurence that was. I got into my car, and drove to teresa's.
WHen I got there, though, Teresa was no where to b found. Instead, this particular person opened the door, and led me inside. He took me by the hand, and led me to the living room. It was dimly lit, and there was a movie playing. He asked me to sit at the computer and open up a file, he said that there was something there that he wnated to show me. By this point, I was very nervous. I sat at the computer and opened the file. There was a pic of a breathtaking place. THere was a mountain, and a waterfall, leading to a river and a sort of cave at one point, and a horse, it looked like it could be winter. Well, needless to say, I was taken away by the sight of it all. He then told me that he wanted to take me there. Well, this was all very sudden, and I just looked at him, unable to think of what to say. He saw the look on my face, and jst smiled. Then he came over to me, and pored me a drink, my fav as of latly, and lit a candle. He told me that I had to enjoy myself, and that I needed to relax. Well, now I was gettting very paranoid, and I started to slowly sip the drink. I finished it, and asked him where Teresa and Jordan were. He said that Jordan was sleeping, and Teresa was too, the last time he checked. Then he told me not to worry, he poured me another drink, and then led me to the couch, and said that it was time for us to get a little closer. Now I was really worried. But my fears were totaly unfounded in this case. He took me by the hand, led me to the couch, and sat down. And then made me sit next to him. Then he leaned back, and pulled me closer, so that i was laying against his chest. He started a movie, and we just relaxed like that for a while. THen he got a phone call. He said that he had an emergency, and taht he would return as quickly as he could. He kissed me slowly and tenderly goodbye, and promised that he would be back soon. I sat on the couch, in a total daze, wondering if any of that really happened. I started to watch the movie, and then before I knew it, he was back. He said that he had something to show me. He led me outside, and to his truck. We got inside and started driving. In what seemed like a matter of minutes, we were looking at the exact view that he had shown me the pic of. I was in total awe. We just sat there looking at it for a few min. And then he drove me back to Teresa's house, and said that he had to go.
A litle bit later, Teresa emerged from her room, and I told her everything that happened. She seemed like she was suprised, but somehow I think that she secretly set me up. And then I woke up. very interesting, I must say.
Hopefully, I have another good dream tomorrow, but for now, it's off to work I go. Well, at least to get ready for work. signing off.
Posted by sweetestrose81
at 9:02 PM PDT
Mine Forever
Mood:
 mischievious
I see you, standing across the way,
I can smell your wonderfull scent,
And my mouth waters
The thought of your blood coursing through my veins drives me insane.
I stalk you for a while, playing cat and mouse,
I wonder if you've caught on yet?
If not, all the better for me
I want to be with you in ways you can not imagine,
Yet I can not tell you these things,
Instead, I will just have to take what I want,
And leave the rest for the birds
If I can't have you, then no one else will either
But I will have you
The scent of your blood, drives me over the edge
I close in behind you
Do you finally see what it was all about to begin with?
To late for you if you didn't
I taste your flesh, your blood,
A torrent of memories floods my head, images from your life,
A life you will never see again
For I always get what I want in the end,
And this time you are the ultimate prize.
You sink into my arms, the world stops moving,
As I relish in this moment, my triumph is almost complete, as are you
Before the final dance, before I say goodbye to you forever, there is one last chance for redemption.
Will you take it?
Will you join me for eternity?
Your beautiful blue grey eyes, look into mine, but no answer.
You must decide quickly, time is almost up
Will you join me for eternity?
Your heavenly taste of fresh blood continues to fill my mouth,
Finally you answer
The world stands still, waiting for your answer
You say, I will join you for eternity.
At last, you will be mine forever
I always get what I want.
I have triumphed once again,
For I will never be alone,
With you by my side,we will take on the world together, and we will be victorious.
The transformastion is complete.
You are mine forever
Posted by sweetestrose81
at 10:57 AM PDT
strange thoughts, late at night, and a bad situation
Mood:
 sad
what a lot of strange thougts i had at work again last night. There are some things that whomever reads this should know. I may refer to people on here, from time to time, but to protect myself, and them, their identities will not b refferd to. they will b known only as letters of the alphabet, which do not in any way corrospond with their real name or gender or any such thing. For those of u who know me, u may realize the iddentity of these peoples, and if that is the case, please keep it to urself. dont tell anyone else, especially that person, for if u still want to b my friend, u wont totaly screw up my life by doing that, ok? Now on to more important matters. I came to a conclusion while i had time to think. There are certain things that I will not compromise for anyone or anything. Those of u who know me, should know what I'm talking about, if not ask me, and I'll tell u later. The thing is, i need to get something out there, about several people, without revealing their identities, because if that happens, then I could b in a whole mess of problems that I just cant deal with. So, i am going to try to state this in the best way possible for my friends to read, without revealing names. And if u figure out exactly what I'm talking about, please, keep it to urself! Person L and person D are involved here.
For reasons that will not b atated here, no more about this situation will b steted here. I may have caused a controversy by posting what i did, and if that is the case, i want to apologize. I never meant to mess things up, by doing what i did. I am at peace now, with the situation that was posted earlier, and i want to thank my friends, for helping me deal with the situation, and helping me realize some truths that i may not have realized earlier. that is all for this entry.
Posted by sweetestrose81
at 10:35 AM PDT
Updated: Thursday, April 21, 2005 8:00 PM PDT
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